just like riding a bike

It's just like riding a bike. That's what I thought would be the case with the ACT-training I got. ACT being Acceptance Commitment Therapy. It had been something like a year and a half ago that I had that training. At first it seemed to work. But it didn't ake long for me to display behavior similar to what I had been doing before the training. My therapist was quick to remind me of the relevant exercises I had done during the training, to keep me on the right path.

Since then I have had two different therapists. Not outof choice. The first two changed jobs. so they were no longer available. Which has now left me with my third therapist in lees than two and a half years. Also a very nice woman. But someone who is less inclined to dive intop the theory behind my behavior and adresses my problems in a more solution prone way. Which I thought would be lovely. Instead of talking about things that seemed to only periferally touch the problems I encountered, she tackled them head on. And ACT... Well, wasn't that something like riding a bike? Once you've learned, it's something you can always turn into practice whenever you want.

But there lies the probl;em. It's not like riding a bike. Or maybe, I never really learned to ride that particular therapeutic bike. It feels more like having a really hard mathematical problem explained to someone who does not have any particular mathematical aptitude. I can understand the reasoning behind the solution and seem to understand the individual steps to be taken to get to the desired outcome. But I can never do it on my own. My command of the subject simply isn't good enough. So that knowledge is lost almost as quickly as it had been acquired. I am left to walking again, because I can only ride the bike when the teacher is running beside it.

This poses a problem, and a question. Do I have the right therapist? Or do I perhaps need another kind of therapy? I don't know. I only feel that repeating the training won't help much. And I doubt whether other such training would produce the desired result. I am a believer in analyses and a great admirer of Freud. I am very glad I do not have him as my therapist. Lucki;ly great improvements over his initial theories have been made in the last century. But nevertheless delving into the history and development of a person's psyche does seem to me to be an effective way of resolving problems that aren't susceptible to trianing or other behavioral approaches.